It's been too long. I only got on here because Kelly told me she was checking her old LJ. Which she will be forced to show me on Saturday. :
Maybe I'll come back to LJ?
If nothing lasts forever, then will you be my nothing?
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17th January 2008
It's been too long. I only got on here because Kelly told me she was checking her old LJ. Which she will be forced to show me on Saturday. :
Maybe I'll come back to LJ?
16th April 2007
How grand, such a long time since my last post.
LiveJournal™ tells me my last time posting was 41 weeks ago. (Possibly 42, I forgot all ready.) That's quite some time! I've come a long way from when I first got onto LiveJournal™ when I had just turned fifteen. Now nearly four years later I am almost eighteen. Splendid. :
So much has gone on I cannot even explain it.
On September 10th, 2006. I was in an accident in which the results were a fractured nose, eye socket and massive trauma to my eye. My iris was basically ripped out, etc. It hasn't been too fun.
I got another tattoo a few months after that.
I've been single for a year and five months.
Things are sort of looking up there though...but some stuff happened last week that made some results I'm a bit stressed about.
I might just come back to LiveJournal™ and start to post every now and then. We'll see what happens. Enjoy!
Current Mood: blah
29th June 2006
So hey it's my birthday today.
So yeah I am seventeen now, how cool. Now I can get rated R movies with no adults with me. (Not that I couldn't before, since I look twenty since I was fourteen) hah. So yes, I guess it's okay. Although no one will be around for my birthday (no one ever is). So I will spend it alone again, who cares. I haven't even had a cake for my birthday for the last three years I think. I'm lame. hrmm. Somebody has to leave soon, which is basically the only thing on my mind. =/ mmm I adore you more dearest. The National Guard visited yesterday and they are calling next week and I am probably going to join. But I am probably going to have to talk to the Navy first. (:D) hrmm. I think that is just about all for now. :
Current Mood: My birthday. woo.
27th June 2006
My first post in quite some time now...
So yeah I don't have my dying LJ love as I used to. (If I had one), but I may actually update this every now and then. I'm only updating it now, since someone recommended it. :D haha :
Anyways LJ is good because I can say what I want and not worry about crackfiends whining over me. Or shitty, slutty, ex-girlfriends moping if they see me discussing about another girl like it would happen on myspace if I made a myspace blog.
So things have been pretty boring. Nothing new is going on. I turn seventeen in two days. And that is about all. I am getting another tattoo shortly, and getting the first re-done.
I hung out with Jessica yesterday. (Damn cutie) I got a bit lost on the way to her house, since Mapquest likes to break my heart and lie. We came back and watched The Hills Have Eyes, which was pretty spiffy. But she complained, too icky/scary something. But I think she handled it quite well. Then we went to Amanda's and I made her Sims character smell like piss (since the character urinated it's self while comming home from work. Then I took her home and all that good shit. Hopefully if she isn't sent out to basics any damn day, I can take her out for Chinese. (Sushi=pwn't). And then she's not aloud to hook up with a sweaty Navy man, so when she comes back we can hook up, and then eventually marry. (She thinks I'm kidding but I'm for real) :-D
Bah other than that....I've been single for about eight months, my grandparent's almost got divorced twice. I got really drunk and puked inches thick and don't remember a thing. My family apparently thinks I'm a alcohol and sex-fiend(since yesterday hah). And yeah...I will update more later.
P.s. Corinne or whoever if for the oddest reason you decide to look at LJ dis-regard this post. I don't need someone moping around about me. It's icky. Especially when the girls who do it are.
That is all.
Current Mood: bored
2nd May 2006
So yeah. I have been totally absent like usual. And I will probably never be attached to LiveJournal as I was. But I do hump myspace and I don't know why. If anyone here has it. Add my arse! www.myspace.com/levimahon :
30th November 2005
I have been gone for awhile, totally.
Yes, so I have totally been absent again for awhile. I don't really see myself comming back and regularly updating like the past...but yeah. So I have totally not been busy with anything. I have been sober..for possibly a month...yeah not liking that.... I am addicted to myspace. Yeah......that's good for now I suppose. :
Alcoholic out. <3
Current Mood: W00P?
25th September 2005
Yeah, I apologize for my absence from livejournal. I haven't updated in a long time....let's get you brought up to speed shall we? Corinne and I broke up three days before our year anniversary. I dated Amanda Thielges and she dumped me after like 12 days but we may date again. My whole family thinks I'm a raving drunk, nymphomanical fool. And I just got caught yesterday with some of my grandfather's alcohol. And I am going to be killed when I go home today. Seriously. Life is crazy. School sucks and is too boring for me. I am taking Amanda to Warped Tour this summer. That should be fun....I will have a job by then so I am planning front row seats. Hopefully that goes good. I may be going to the Gathering of the Juggalos (GOTJ). Well I am done for now. Peace whores! :
Current Mood: drunk
30th June 2005
I just needed to update this. ew old
Yea nothing is going on really. I just decided to update my journal for fun so you can all read my stupid posts. Heh I think I am just here to annoy you people....I am terribly sorry. Hey it's 4:46 in the morning...I turned sixteen yesterday! w00p* Isn't that just dandy? I can't wait...permit, then license! YaY. Well I think that's about it for now? It's almost ten months for Corinne and I! Just eleven more days! :
Current Mood: ecstatic
4th May 2005
1st May 2005
Yes! I'm no longer a virgin! ew old
ew old :
11th April 2005
ew old :
Current Mood: optimistic
27th March 2005
10th March 2005
ew old :
Current Mood: *EW*
14th February 2005
ew old :
8th February 2005
Haven't updated in awhile. ew old
Yea, I haven't been really updating, I was going to just update on the 11t of every month. And comment on Corinne's posts, whenever she posts them. But I decided I just couldn't stay away from LJ. Well nothing really has happend lately. The week before last, Corinne and I went to the Snowball dance in Port. I think she enjoyed it, yet she kept unzipping my pants and was trying to take them off the whole time. Well she got at my house at about 5 Josh and I decided to start driving from the ill town of Roulette that I live in to Port, we saw them so we turned around as fast as possible and we were going anywhere from 95-105+ Mph on the highway catching up. Then we guided him to my house,(Which I guess her dad liked) then her parents talked with my grandma for a bit and whatnot. Then we went upstairs and of course Josh stayed at my house, and offered to take us (damn him). ew, I was a bit disappointed for I couldn't return the favour. It was odd, after that I felt like I was going to pass out. I was exhausted heh. Then we went to the dance, I introduced her to Mary and some other friends. (Since only stupid people showed up really and about the only people I would be able to get along with there would be Mary and a select few. Then we went to my Aunt's for a bit and laid on her couch, then my grandpa came and we took her home. The Wednesday last week, we went to bring a pillow to Corinne to give to Nikita (Josh's girlfriend) and we decided to stay, Corinne and I humped on the floor and whatnot. Josh and I decided that we should leave now, since it was nearly eight and everyone went to a basketball game. Her mom didn't want us to stay but her dad said we could, we just had to leave by the time they got back so her mom wouldn't be distraught. Well right as we were pulling out they pulled in a stuff. And Corinne was supposedly grounded but she didn't get grounded. She was planning on staying at Nicole's on Friday to go bowling at Byllye Lanes and they did. I told her I wish I could go and whatnot. Then Josh called saying he wanted to do something so I called Nicole and asked if she cared if we went. But told her not to tell Corinne. Well we went, and Nicole, Corinne, Cory, Allicia, and Adrian weren't they're yet. So we waited, then I rememebered that Kat, Bill Smock, Von, Serena, Greg, and a few other kids were already there. So we talked to them for a bit then Corinne and the others finally arrived. The look on her face was classic. She came over to me telling me she loved me and stuff. It was great. For nearly the first hour or so we just pissed around and talked, we finally started going, Corinne wasn't even going to bowl she took her stuff back and everything. Nicole and Cory joined Kat and them while Allicia watched. Corinne just stuck by me, I bought slushies. Cotton Candy flavoured at that. Some people were leaving, so Josh and I decided to pay for our stuff and get started I told Corinne she had to play so she gave them the money again and we started. ew I did farely well at bowling though I am horrible. Corinne got basically a 0 the first game. Then she got several spares and whatnot. I came in first in 1 out of the 2 games we played. I got a turkey (3 strikes in a row in the tenth frame) then in the next game the first two times I got strikes. Then I just got spares and 9's. After that we pissed around for awhile and decided to go to the arcade part and mess around. Josh kept bowling. We played games for awhile then Nicole came in and we played this odd game with a odd piece of headgear. She could barely stand. Then we went back and talked to Josh. Then we were waiting for Nicole's dad to come get them. Josh had to take some kids home and whatnot. Corinne was still there. And Nicole and Corry were fighting in the locker room thing, or whatever it was. We were all just out in the main entry room talking, Kat and everyone, then Corinne and I. Then Nicole's dad came and they left and Corinne almost ran into the door or fell down or something because she couldn't take her eyes off me as she left. (Also, *UGH* Kevin Paulter was at the Lanes....I was going to freak out, but I maintained control) Then Kat and I talked and everything. Josh finally got back, and I said bye to all and Kat gave me a few hugs and whatnot and gave Josh a hug then we left. The next day my grandfather came and got me at about 11 in the morning at Josh's and we went to get Corinne. We went to Burger King and ate. We got to Port and went to Take Two Video they don't have They Labyrinth, but The Anarchist Cookbook was in. Then we went straight to my house. First we got on the computer quicky, so I could show her the "XXX" rated emoticons I downloaded awhile ago. Then we went upstairs to watch The Anarchist Cookbook (A very good low budget film). ew We went there and I wanted to get pizza and cake or something. Then my grandfather showed up and said he and my grandmother are going to Olean to get some things. He asked if we wanted to go I said no. Of course. I told him to get pizza, cake mix, and frosting while they are there. We then got some stuff and sat down and ate. There was a selection of movies behind us. (A new feature to the small convenience store) We saw The Grudge which Corinne saw and said it is the scariest movie ever. So we tried to get it. Turns out we need a membership and you need to be 18 for the membership. So we decided to go back to my house. ew Then I called my mom, she said she is going to Port so I asked her to get The Grudge and she said she can't because the dick Paul is going there. She said when he gets back she will go to the store and get a membership to get The Grudge. She never did, but oh well. Corinne and I got on her ICQ and stuff. She updated her info and deleted a few people and whatnot. My grandparents finally got back later. We ate pizza and we looked around the television for a bit to find something to occupy ourselves with. Jason X is a bit stupid but we watched it. I kept nagging on my grandmother until she finally gave in and started to make the cake since we had to take Corinne home soon. It finally got done. We ate cake and messed around for a bit. Then we had to take her home. I grabbed an ICP cd, we got in the Avalanche and we were on our way. We did our goodbyes and that was about it. It was so much fun, ew ! Her birthday is friday, as is our five month anniversary. That is super. She was going to have a party, but Josh and I aren't allowed to stay, and she might not be able to have it at the motel, so last night her mom said she might as well spend the day with me or something. So on Friday right after school my grandfather and I are going to get her and I will give her, the present I am buying for her Thursday (I get to skip school!). I will also give her the Valentine's gift I have for her. Then we are going to the Chinese Buffet. We may walk around in the mall for a bit then we will probably will be taking her home. I don't know what is planned after that. I am sure there is much more though. Well that's about all I have to say. Heh. :
11th January 2005
Whatever four month ew old
Yes, today marks the four month for Corinne and I. Woop Tee Fuck. Yea, um whatever. :
Current Mood: Who cares
3rd January 2005
Certainly not doing what I am supposed to be! ew old
Back in school. So gay. I am calling Corinne right when I get home...well she told me to anyways. I am supposed to be finishing this project but instead I am watching ICP music videos on Yahoo! Well I think I am going to search up some more. "Can you guess what this place is, your future make it a reality. All you have to do is find your need". :
Current Mood: School
24th December 2004
*Ack* Lj tests. Ha. ew old
Current Mood: sleepy
21st December 2004
Bored, 8th period. ew old
Yes, I am so bored. Just sitting here in 8th period listening to music, like Taking back Sunday and Type O Negative. Nothing much to do here. School is so fucking gay it isn't funny. I can't wait until Thursday I am coming to see Corinne. And she may be comming over during Christmas vacation....maybe staying the night..(but I won't be getting my hopes on that part) Well I am going to search up some ICP and blare it so maybe I will get yelled at. :
Current Mood: anxious
19th December 2004
*Smiles* ew old
Yesterday...was....beautiful..and orgasmic like always. Heh. I am bored. Not really tired though. I ew old Corinne so much, yesterday was great! I am going to piss around on here then go home and call Corinne! :
Current Mood: accomplished
18th December 2004
Sitting around waiting for Sir Joshua. ew old
Yes, I am bored heh. Waiting for Josh to get out of the shower. Then Jeremy(Sigh), him, and myself are heading to Olean for some minor Christmas shopping. I got Corinne some things on Tuesday as well heh. Then we are off to Bradford probably until like eleven. So I can see the girl I love so much, and reproduce with her like always. *Smiles* I am wearing this really hot pink shirt I have. It's makes me look..ew old."sexeh"? Heh. I can't wait to see her. Well I think we are just about on our way so for now...I'm gone! :
Current Mood: horny
12th December 2004
I told Corinne that I made a long sad entry in my journal about what happened. When I visited her, she said I should update again. So here I am....I am crying again almost. I don't know why. I love her so much. And you know, I am not afraid to say it. I got ew old. I don't care what people think. I don't know what to think about myself. Or the relationship again. I am worried. I don't know....I ew old her too much. Corinne I ew p;d you so much. But I have to get some sleep.....it is six in the morning and I haven't got sleep. I have to get up around noon to go to my house for money, change of clothes and whatnot. Then to Corinne's for the day again. ew old :
Current Mood: Shitty.
11th December 2004
She drove a nail through my heart. God I need you more than ever....ew old
Yesterday, was the worst day in the history of mankind. I knew it, I knew I was right. Everything was lies, nothing was truth. Almost everyone lied to me....including her. The girl who claimed she loved me. But that was a lie, and I knew it....she didn't love me until about halfway through our relationship. She lied, she cheated, she commited a horrible crime to me. She promised she was telling the truth and that everything wazs okay to Me, on our relationship, to God.....and even on our lives. It was a lie. Am I dead now....to the world I am....maybe I should be dead...maybe it's best. This has stuck me like nothing before. God cannot understand my pain right now. This pain will last aeons. It is unbearable. Everyone knows, the truth hurts....but the truth is better. The truth is always better told even if it has destructive results. Everyone knows it's too late now. I vowed to myself, I vowed to God, I wouldn't experience sexual things with someone, unless I thought it was the person I thought I wanted to be with as long as it was scientifically possible, and that when I did...no matter what I would never leave them. Oddly enough I still don't want to leave her anyways. I can't I made a vow. Even if I didn't I still wouldn't leave her. She means to much to me. She is my everything, she is my all. It would take more than words to describe how I feel. This is my commitment. The pain, it won't end. She drove a nail through my heart. She crushed my thoughts. Tainted my dreams. Butchered my love. It's torment. I can't help but feel to do something stupid. Feeling estatic. Why does this have to happen to me? It is horrible. I can't stand myself. I almost threw up last night. I don't want to go through with this. I love her so much. But she lied, everyone did. Everyone kept it from me, why? It will take all that the world, and the heavens have to mend my heart. I am crushed. My soul,is empty. The cup is half empty, not half full. My sanity is low. I am in a realm of hatred. A realm of sympathy. A realm of nothingness. I am alone in the world. My world now. Corinne, why didn't you take the time to love? Why do you have to put me through this? You know that you are most important. Why would you claim that you didn't think I loved you and whatnot. What have I done. Nothing. Why must I experience this. After all we've done, after all we have been through, after all we have done, completed. Why couldn't you of just told me before. I prayed everynight for us. I still do, and still will. I prayed something of this nature would never happen. Neither of us would have to go through such pain. Both of us would be honest. Loving. Caring. Pain-free. It isn't happening? We need to change things. I need you. I love you. I want you. I will do anything for you. The only thing I truly want...is for you to be happy, even if it is not with me...I want you to be happy. And if it isn't with me, I want the person to treat you as well as he/she can. I don't know. If not me, I want whoever it is....to love me as much as I love you....for as long as he/she may live...if it may not be possible, I want him/her to make it possible. But no one will truly love you, as much as I have....as much as I do. Like I said....it is like a twisted tale of Romeo and Juliet. This pain won't end. My crying won't end. My thoughts, of sadness, hatred, my anger. It won't end. What happend was wrong. But I want you to be happy. "I wore black, you wore white. I always one the fights. You shot me down, I hit the ground. That awful site. You used to shoot me down." Don't let it end like that. "Or I will I will be gone, you won't know why, somedays you will cry, I won't even say goodbye, nor take the time to lie." Don't shoot me down, I won't shoot you down. Corinne I can't live on without you. Nor do I want to. Let us be happy, let us be in peace. Not pieces. For now.....I am nothing.....and I will continue until you show me true love, that you truly want to be with me. As I said I want you to be happy. So your choice, you decide. I want you to be happy......... I Still ew old.. ew old..for now....... :
Current Mood: Inhumanly Sad.
8th December 2004
Bah. Test for LJ. ew old
2nd December 2004
I finally returned to school today. Crazy. Heh. Well tomorrow I am coming to Bradford again to visit Corinne and to.....well yes. Ha. I am going to upload some things and whatnot. ew old :